I
have to live a life of lies.
Since honest people are rarely given the chance to be heard,
I have to live a life of lies.
I
have to tell so many lies now just so I can survive.
just so I can get the
chance to tell the truth later, perhaps,
just so I can get the
opportunity to pass on
the
eternal questions and objections
of a
youthful mind and an inquiring soul.
Oh merciful heavens.
Oh flamboyant hell.
How
deep inside myself do I have to dig
just so I can find some
hapless source of strength and ingenuity
which I so sorely need
to
balance things out.
April 6, 1997