The die has long been cast.
I
can hear its impassive wheeze as it falls through the air.
I
can feel my growing despair as I wait for it to plunge into the ground,
as I know it will,
as I know it must,
someday.
For it’s inevitable.
It’s physics pure and simple.
I
cannot change the laws of nature.
I
cannot bribe the gods.
The only thing I can do is to live in constant anticipation
and angst,
waiting for the zero hour to come,
and the eventual impact.
I
cannot change the laws of nature once the die is cast.
I
have to take the world as is regardless of the outcome.
April 20, 1997